If you are ever completely stuck trying to figure out a great gift that I will love and cherish and accept with true gratitude (and not a face paired with “Oh, a (insert odd item here)… How nice! Thank you?!“), make me a mix CD. Seriously! I enjoy listening (and singing) to music, but I am completely incapable of creating a music mix. I think too much about it, and so if you were to listen to anything I’ve ever put together it is *completely* obvious as to why each song follows another. And I’m acutely aware of it, so I can’t listen to my own mixes without getting slightly irritated and trying to repopulate my entire CD playlist in my head with new songs. And that much thought about something so trivial just makes me tired.
Yep, make me a mix CD and I’m delighted. And don’t be surprised if I request an annual do-over because whenever a song comes on the radio that is on the CD, and it ends, I start singing the next song on the CD. As if the DJ knows that you put together the BEST MIX EVER so, of course, this song should follow the one we just heard. Duh…
Just don’t try to tell me that I could make my own mix if I really wanted to. Because then I would have to patiently explain to you that I am a self-diagnosed perfectionist. And I am learning that perfectionism can be a good thing, but it also has it’s negative aspects. For instance – perfectionism taken to its pathological form makes the sufferer believe that anything less than perfect is unacceptable. Which causes procrastination, self-deprecation, workaholism, anxiety and low self-esteem. It also makes me a candidate for obsessive-compulsive disorder, eating disorders (um, so not going to happen! Have you seen my appreciation for food?) and clinical depression (been there, did that, got a t-shirt).
Basically – perfectionism makes me think, “If I can’t create the ULTIMATE MUSIC MIX OF MY LIFETIME – everytime – then why bother?”
So, I’ve decided that a huge shout-out is in order! This goes out to a few special friends of mine – individuals who have made me rock out in my car to their awesome mixes! THANK YOU for loving me and my shortcomings, for sending me tunes in the mail when distance separates us, and for inspiring me to engage in outrageous car dancing! (Which I should really stop for the safety of those around me, but alas… It’s so not going to happen!)
Jamie – the stuff I would never have even heard of or encountered without knowing her; eclectic and opening musical doors for me every time I listen. The creator of the Don Juan de Llama mixes, the Country Punk mix, the City Stages mix, and several birthday mixes. Music comes as naturally to her as breathing, and I’m always wondering what she’s downloaded since the last time I talked to her.
Max – the creator of my Happy Day mix (thank you for that one, it was much needed and still treasured), the Big Pimpin’ mix, the Metal mix, the Metallica mix, among others. I visited Max in Colorado in ’07 and we drove from the airport to his apartment listening to a new mix that (get this) I got to take home with me! Yeah, he gifted his guest. And that was after buying my plane ticket out there. What a man!
Amy – with whom I actually attempted the art of song mixing (the Wonder Twins mixes, which included the Ass Whoopin’ mix and the Fun Fuck Sex mix), yet who still will randomly take pity on me and toss new rock music mixes and country mixes my way. She also created the I’m Better Off Without You mix – brilliant for getting through a tough time – and the Where’s Max Mix? from when we were totally missin’ our ‘Yes-Man’!
Charles – gifted me with a surprising mix of good beats and slower tunes right around my birthday… I wasn’t sure what to expect, but it was obvious he put a lot of thought into it. He had me groovin’ to some tracks, and getting a little introspective on others. An interesting combo!
Jason – the Boba Fett & other punk covers mix, sent to me – unasked – right after my first visit to see him and Jaci down at VA Tech, when I laughed along with Jaci’s singing to the Boba Fett song. I didn’t expect it, but it was so nice to know he thought enough of me to make that CD! I was touched. Thanks, Jay!
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